11/22/2018 blog

Its another depressing day… I have no idea what I am doing with myself anymore. I watched a show earlier today and it triggered me really bad, now that is all I can think about.  my life is hard. I dont like change and my biggest fear is rejection. I have no clue what to do anymore. I just cant seem to go out. I feel trapped in my depressing thoughts and I cant get out. it feels like i am drowning and part of me doesn’t want to come up for air, that same part just wants to sink to the bottom of the ocean and let the world move on. but I have my family who would miss me so I wont do that to them but still…I guess the saying stars can’t shine without darkness is true, but at the moment I dont see it. All I see is the darkness.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s