so today was not so good. i put on a fake smile and i said “im fine thank you” more times than i can count, no one here realizes how much i am really drowning in my own thoughts. it is very hard not to let them take over. i miss my mom and i miss my family too much for what my heart can handle. i like the people hear but they dont get me… they dont know me, they are not the people ive grown up with, they are not the people that i love. they are not the people i know. they are not the people i have been with for 16 friggin years. but they are good people who care. they are the people who are accepting me and they are the people who are now the only ones in my life.